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[Badly] Wanted: Detachment from the World

{ 25 October, 2008 @ 10:22 pm } · { Journal, Personal, Thoughts }
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I only have simple dreams but neither of them are within reach.

Or were they really simple?

How I wish there was a place where I can go every time I wanted to be detached from the world and be numb from heartache’s blows, from job’s responsibilities, from being a mother, from being a friend, and be just ME– ALL ALONE.

You’re starting to make me realize, I don’t want to bring any more pain in your life. And the only way to do that is to be far from you. Far enough that you wouldn’t feel my existence.

I’d rather take all the pain, the heartaches; for my love’s sake.

What’s in a Day {24.October.2008}

{ 25 October, 2008 @ 10:02 pm } · { Journal, Personal }
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Mid-year evaluation this AM.

When I was asked what do I think of my job, I couldn’t help but cry. I was surprised when I felt that I was about to shed tears. Why? My boss asked me why? What’s wrong?

Part of it was because I have kept myself from crying the past week [obviously because of what happened with me & chwing chwing], another part was because of the huge project I was expected to accomplished by the end of 2008.

We chatted. There was an arguement, which I did not really considered as one because I was just merely asking him to clarify some thing [missing you too.. wrong send]. He got stressed out, said things that was painful on my part. Right there & then, I felt so unworthy, so useless. Because it seemed that everytime I say something, everytime I do something, it would only hurt him.

It Don’t Matter To The Sun

{ 25 October, 2008 @ 11:02 am } · { Personal, Thoughts }
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It don’t matter to the sun if you go or if you stay

No, the sun is gonna rise, gonna rise

Shine down on another day.

There will be tomorrow if you choose to leave

Cause it don’t matter to the sun, no, no

IT MATTERS TO ME

It ain’t gonna stop the world if you walk out that door

This world just keeps spinning round, spinning round

Like it did the day before

Cause to them it makes no difference

It just keeps on keeping time

Cause it ain’t gonna stop the world, no

BUT IT WILL BE THE END OF MINE

So what can I say? What can I do?

I’m still in love. Why aren’t you?

Cause it don’t matter to the moon if you’re not in my life

No, the moon will just keep hanging round, hanging round

Like it’s just another night

Who find another place to shine on some other lover’s dreams

Cause it don’t matter to the moon, no, no

IT MATTERS TO ME

Every thing else will carry on..

Do just what they’re used to..

Go about their daily lives..

But YOU.

What’s in a Day {23.October.2008}

{ 23 October, 2008 @ 9:51 pm } · { Journal, Personal }
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continued making my quarterly report. i had to encode & include photocopy data, which i had to get to someone who does the photocopying.

cried a bit in the office while chatting with chwing chwing. it was hard to hide it because i really wanted to cry so hard.

he said to just forget about it. didn’t want to try yet again, though.

it’s fine with me. i understand. at least, i am at peace already knowing that he has already forgiven me.

What’s in a Day {22.October.2008}

{ 22 October, 2008 @ 9:18 pm } · { Journal, Personal }
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a very tiring day for me at work.

i had to finish 2 reports, weekly & quarterly, which are due this friday.

the school inventory is still afloat. [& just a thought of it makes me want to faint]

curly has a fever that’s why she was not able to go to school. i hope she gets well by tomorrow because it’s their halloween party & their theme is prince, princess, super heroes.

chwing chwing is still in ignore-hate me mode ;-(

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