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[Badly] Wanted: Detachment from the World

{ 25 October, 2008 @ 10:22 pm } · { Journal, Personal, Thoughts }
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I only have simple dreams but neither of them are within reach.

Or were they really simple?

How I wish there was a place where I can go every time I wanted to be detached from the world and be numb from heartache’s blows, from job’s responsibilities, from being a mother, from being a friend, and be just ME– ALL ALONE.

You’re starting to make me realize, I don’t want to bring any more pain in your life. And the only way to do that is to be far from you. Far enough that you wouldn’t feel my existence.

I’d rather take all the pain, the heartaches; for my love’s sake.

What’s in a Day {24.October.2008}

{ 25 October, 2008 @ 10:02 pm } · { Journal, Personal }
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Mid-year evaluation this AM.

When I was asked what do I think of my job, I couldn’t help but cry. I was surprised when I felt that I was about to shed tears. Why? My boss asked me why? What’s wrong?

Part of it was because I have kept myself from crying the past week [obviously because of what happened with me & chwing chwing], another part was because of the huge project I was expected to accomplished by the end of 2008.

We chatted. There was an arguement, which I did not really considered as one because I was just merely asking him to clarify some thing [missing you too.. wrong send]. He got stressed out, said things that was painful on my part. Right there & then, I felt so unworthy, so useless. Because it seemed that everytime I say something, everytime I do something, it would only hurt him.

What’s in a Day {23.October.2008}

{ 23 October, 2008 @ 9:51 pm } · { Journal, Personal }
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continued making my quarterly report. i had to encode & include photocopy data, which i had to get to someone who does the photocopying.

cried a bit in the office while chatting with chwing chwing. it was hard to hide it because i really wanted to cry so hard.

he said to just forget about it. didn’t want to try yet again, though.

it’s fine with me. i understand. at least, i am at peace already knowing that he has already forgiven me.

What’s in a Day {22.October.2008}

{ 22 October, 2008 @ 9:18 pm } · { Journal, Personal }
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a very tiring day for me at work.

i had to finish 2 reports, weekly & quarterly, which are due this friday.

the school inventory is still afloat. [& just a thought of it makes me want to faint]

curly has a fever that’s why she was not able to go to school. i hope she gets well by tomorrow because it’s their halloween party & their theme is prince, princess, super heroes.

chwing chwing is still in ignore-hate me mode ;-(

Unimaginable

{ 21 October, 2008 @ 1:55 pm } · { Journal, Personal }
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OMG!

I just noticed the date of my last post {20.December.2007}

A few more months & it’s going to be already a year old.

What have I been doing??? Hmmm.. **ponder ponder ponder**

>> finished college [graduated 11.May.2008]

>> job hunting [currently working as an administrative assistant in a international school]

>> fell in love

>> fell out of love [not really.. uhm, just had misunderstandings- countless misunderstandings]

But now I am back again.

Wish I could post on a regular basis **crossing finger**

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